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I wish that Carter would stop crying. I wish that he’d let me put him down. I feel permanently attached to him today, except for earlier when he was happy playing on floor. From that, his knees are all red and almost look like he’s starting to get rug burn.

We had one successful feeding with the formula, and now he’s back to refusing to take it. He seems to be getting distracted from feeding altogether and only really takes well to my breast now when I’m laying down. And I can’t, nor do I want to, lay down all the time!

All the kids have been testing my annoyance levels all day today. Kaeidyn’s been hungry literally all day, I think it’s time for another growth spurt. After cereal this morning, within half an hour she was asking for a snack. Even after she got her snack, she kept asking for more food. Lunch came around, and she downed her lunch and then asked for a snack immediately after. She had two snacks before dinner, mowed down on dinner and is now having yet another snack before bed.

They all seem to be extremely whiny lately too. Especially the boys. I feel bad saying it, but honestly Kenzie’s voice right now is just about the most annoying thing ever. Even when he’s happy, he has a piercing, whiny twang to his voice that automatically causes my temples to pulse. It doesn’t help that he is completely unaware of the volume of his whiny twang, so it seems like every time he opens his mouth, he’s being told to quiet down.

Keirnan’s been crying constantly and seems to cause himself at least two wounds a day. I don’t know if it’s clumsiness as much as it is carelessness. He hits his head off things, even though he ducks when he thinks it’s going to hit him in the head. Somehow manages to hit the table, the counter and the doorknobs constantly. Instead of walking over or picking up a toy, he’ll just step right on it. Which results in a bout of relentless tears and his intense squealing which just about drives me over the edge every time he does it.

I’ve been doing things to try to squander the whininess as much possible, like I used to be able to do. For instance, I let them play outside constantly. Usually when they get fresh air, they become exhausted and pretty much quiet. Now though, it almost seems to make them grumpier. Or giving them a drink. Usually after they’ve had a drink, they don’t whine as much. They’ll sit quietly and drink their drink. Lately, they get a drink and then they all seem to get out of control.

I think that’s the biggest reason why it’s reached this point of overwhelming annoyance. Everything about life right now is completely out of control. The condition of my house is out of control, my finances are out of control, the kids are out of control, the list goes on and on….

I finally and unexpectedly vacuumed the living room, which has been on my to do list for way too long. I was working away on the computer and then I got up to grab a piece of paper that Kaeidyn had left on the ground from Carter, and next thing you know, I’m tidying the floor and vacuuming it. Even though you can hardly tell now, but it’s the thought that counts.

Talked to my landlord today, and this load limiter thing is just a ridiculous thing. Now my landlord wants me to call them back and if they say it’s his responsibility again, he’s gonna call and deal with it, so that I end up having to pay the last eight months of arrears. The thing that pisses me off about it, isn’t that I have to pay that money. It’s that I wish I would’ve known that something was up with my power and I don’t know whose fault it actually was, the providers or the landlords. Plus it pisses me off, because eight months of arrears is not going to come cheap, and right now money is so tight that it will probably take me another eight months just to pay the arrears. And then I’ll have eight more months of arrears to start paying and I’ll be stuck in a horrible and vicious circle.

The Boyfriend has been looking into going down to part-time. Financially speaking, it’s completely inconvenient and couldn’t have possibly come at a worse time. But it’s also killing him in all sorts of ways to continue on like this. If it weren’t graveyard and if he could get some proper sleep, it wouldn’t be that bad. Unfortunately, it’s just not working out and when almost everyday he’s talking about hating his job, how could I possibly not support him on something that could change his physical, mental and emotional status – and for the better.

And if he goes down to part-time, then I can possibly start a part-time job. That would make me ecstatic. I’ve been craving going back to work for years, and it seems the longer I don’t work, the more I want to. Obviously I couldn’t work for long hours or anything, because Carter’s only willing to do rice cereal once a day. But if I could work it around his feedings, maybe during his afternoon nap, I could get away with anywhere from 2 -4 hours of work a couple of times a week.

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We were doing so good
We were making such strides
We had kicked the addiction
We were changing our lives

I don’t want to whine, I really don’t. The Boyfriend and I agreed to a cheat day a couple days back, and bought a pack of smokes. We had both been complaining about wanting a smoke. As I’ve said, it seems harder to not smoke now than it did for the first three weeks. Our cheat pack lasted one day…

So then the next day, we bought another pack which only lasted a day. Today was a two pack day (that were bought, we’ve smoked one so far :() And seriously, I hate it. I want to go back to the way I felt when I wasn’t smoking. I’m still just considering it cheating.

The Boyfriend and I were sitting on the couch, and I said “I think starting Saturday, I’m not buying anymore smokes”, and he goes “Really?” as if he was disappointed. All along, I had thought that he was so upset that I had given in, and that he was loving the quitting. So I say “You want to keep smoking?!?!”,  and he goes “We’re chasing the wagon. I figure as long as we never go over a pack a day.”

It feels like crap. We were doing so very good. Those first three weeks, I was managing any possible cravings I had (put on 7″ in the process, but I blame that partially on quitting but more on breastfeeding), though it wasn’t for the smoke that I was having a craving. It was for the exhale. That’s always been my favourite part of smoking. Exhaling and watching the smoke blow out my mouth, feeling like all the problems are going with it. That, and I love the way I look exhaling 😉 It feels very french retro.

After the first three weeks, it seemed like at least once a day, everyday, I would be seriously craving a smoke. I’d start thinking about it, then I’d start talking about it. Then I started bumming a smoke or two a day off Alfie, and then came the day of the cheat pack…

It just makes me feel really hopeless about all the other goals that I had set for myself, and made me realize how many of those goals I’ve also given up on.

  • Doing dishes everyday.
    The Boyfriend had 3 days off, and I didn’t do more than what was needed for meals every night. So 5 plates, 5 forks, and whatever cookery we used for the meal.
  • Lifting my weight everyday
    I was doing awesome. I think I did a week and a half straight. Then The Boyfriend bought me the stability ball and resistance band (and the vacuum so I could put the stability ball on the floor without fear of it popping), and I haven’t lifted weights a day since. The Boyfriend’s been doing it on and off, even doing push ups and on the days that he doesn’t lift weights, he does 25 presses with Carter whose about 13 pounds.
  • Vacuuming everyday
    I’ve vacuumed twice. Both times were delightful experiences. I just haven’t had an ounce of energy to do it. The kids were doing really good keeping their toys downstairs for about a week, and it was easy to clean the living room then. Now, they’ve started bringing everything up here, and it’s just easier to leave it than clean it!

This week has been a week of disappointments. I had so many plans for this week, and I didn’t accomplish a single one of them. Even The Boyfriend, who works graveyards, and sleeps during the day, got more done than I did.

I had planned to go grocery shopping yesterday, but then we got busy around the house and so I said I would do it today. Today rolled around, and it was cold outside, so I’ve put it off for another day. I finally buckled and called my aunt for a ride downtown to drop all my paperwork off, even though my original plan was to walk down, take a bus back. But I guess I’m too much of a diva for that or something…

I wish it was just easy to become motivated, and be less lazy. You’d think that it would  be so simple. Just get off your butt. For some reason, for alot of reasons maybe, it just seems so hard! I feel very stumped, like I’ve hit a brick wall. I hope I figure something out, I think it’s time for another re-evaluation…

So question: Kenzie’s been out of control with the asking about games. I swear all I really heard from him today was “Can I play a game yet?”, and every single time it got whinier and whinier. At one point, I was sure that only dogs could hear the pitch he was reaching…

Saying “Wait” seemed to work for a better portion of the day. “Just wait a minute, Kenzie” and it would buy us about an hour of silence. Is it horrible to continually tell your kids to wait? It feels like it’s being mean, but “No” causes a horrendous fit, giving in means he’s on the games all day long, wait buys time in between the ever annoying question.

Well time to feed the baby…

I was looking through pictures (all sorts of pictures) last night, and I came to a few realizations about a variety of things.

1. All my kids have grown SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO much…

Past Present

Kaeidyn, 1 1/2 years old

Kaeidyn, 5 years old

Kenzie, 2 or 3 mths

Kenzie, 3 1/2 years old

Keirnan, 1 day old

Keirnan, 2 years old

Carter, 1 day old

Carter, 3 mths old


2. I looked hella rough after Carter was born…

Right After Labour

3 days later...

3. I seriously need to do something about my eyebrows…

Hardly see em...

4. I can’t wait to get my pre-baby body back…

Pre-Baby

Lil Bit Pregnant

Really Pregnant...

Post Baby Body

So, yesterday I was looking around on Amazon.com (which I’ve decided I don’t like as much as I did originally, because they don’t do PayPal – and I don’t have a credit card…), and started checking out the Wii. I’ve been wanting one since it came out, and I played a game of tennis (and kicked some serious butt!).

The Boyfriend and I are either bad or good (depends on how you look at it) at sort of pre-planning our bigger purchases. Though it’s not like this great plan, we’ve just kind of made a list of what gets purchased first and next and so on and so forth. It’s just a list, without any real plan whatsoever. For instance:

  1. Buy a Vacuum
    We did this. It was the number 1 thing we needed.
  2. Buy a Wii (with WiiFit Plus)
    Want it so bad, it’s our next big purchase
  3. Buy a Car
    The plan is to do this with a Profit Sharing check. YAY for Wal-Mart!
  4. Get a new deep freezer
    This is The Boyfriend’s desire, not mine. We have a perfectly good deep freeze, except for the fact that almost an entire months worth of food went bad, because it was unknowingly unplugged. So he just wants to get a new, tinier one.
  5. A new guitar for me…
    My old one, the one The Boyfriend bought me when we were first together for my birthday, my muse, is broken and I can’t fix it. So we’ve agreed, I eventually get a new one.
  6. 32″ Flat Screen TV
    Another one of The Boyfriend’s desires.  For some reason, one that I don’t quite understand, he wants a TV in our room. We’re almost never in our room for any length of time, let alone any time that it would be worth it to put a TV down there. But he’s been obsessed with the idea over the last couple of days.
  7. A Cell Phone
    When we first started dating, The Boyfriend went out and bought us both cellphones. I was going to his house alot and leaving Alfie at my house with the kids alot. He never had a land line, back then Alfie hated calling his phone, so he solved the problem by buying me my own cell phone.

    Well one day, I opened up my cellphone and the screen was just blank. And it stayed that way. I didn’t get it fixed, because it turned out I didn’t really need a cellphone. No one ever called me on it… Now I don’t know where my cellphone and he has no real use for a cellphone.  But we’ve discovered that when we go shopping or whatever, it would be great if we had a cellphone.

    There’s been times where Alfie’s had to send Mama T to pick Kaeidyn up from school, because The Boyfriend and I have been rushing back from grocery shopping and couldn’t call in time to let him know to get all the kids ready to go pick her up. Luckily he’s a generally smart guy, and figured out to call my Mom (even though it was only 10 minutes before Kaeidyn got off school).

  8. A new computer
    We keep saying we need to buy a new computer for The Boyfriend to run his games on, like World of Warcraft and Pirates of the Burning Sea. And I want a laptop for all the writing that I want to be doing, and all the research that I end up doing…

This stuff will probably take us a few years to acquire. As long as we have a Wii by summer (because I want to get my pre-baby body back, and I think that a Wii Fit will keep me motivated and I’ll want to do it because I love me some video games – I enjoy trying to beat everyone’s high score, it would be great competition for The Boyfriend and I. Muwhahahahahaha), and a car by next winter (profit sharing should be next month, so with any luck, it’ll be as soon as next month!), because eventually Alfie’s gonna get a job and not be able to walk Kaeidyn to school every morning, and then I’ll have to suffer through the freezing cold winters.

Kaeidyn has a full day of school today, which meant we had to send a lunch to school with her. Should be easy, right? Wrong. First, I don’t get paid until tomorrow, and I don’t touch The Boyfriend’s money without asking him first. And he’s sleeping, and I don’t even know if he has any money (I’m very determined to keep my financial independence and not force him to pick up Alfie’s slack), and I’m not gonna wake him up to ask. But anywho…

So then I find out yesterday, that I’m out of sandwich bags. Then to make matters worse, the last piece of bread got finished off late last night, and the english muffins went moldy. So all the things I needed for Kaeidyn to take for lunch, we didn’t have. For once, Alfie was useful in this department, and he had everything I didn’t, so lunch has been saved. But man was I ever stressing about it all morning. I even woke up early because of it!

Still have tons of cleaning to get done today. I’m probably gonna start that relatively soon. Hopefully I’ll actually get the revised edition of my to-do list done. And then tomorrow is going to be a crazy day. I have to walk downtown, then bus it back up to the North Side (haven’t been on a bus in almost 2 years), then I’ve got to do grocery shopping most likely solo, and then I’ve got to pile $500 worth of groceries (which doesn’t sound like alot, but somehow just around that – give or take a few dollars – feeds us for an entire month!) into a cab and then bring it all in the house as quickly as possible. Not looking forward to tomorrow… Oh well, what can you do?

So not a super long post tonight, my house is incredibly hot again, Carter is rather grumpy and wants some cuddles, and I’m super tired. But it’s my goal to blog everyday, so here I am.

I used my new vacuum today. Boy do I love it. It glides across my carpet with ease, it picks up tons of junk (which my floor always seems to have lots of!), and it was quiet so vacuuming while The Boyfriend sleeps is no biggie. The kids even got to use it today, though that doesn’t get to happen anymore because I want this vacuum to last awhile. We have had 3 or 4 vacuums break since I moved into this place 2 years ago!

Today seemed like an exhausting day, even though looking back on it, it probably wasn’t all that bad. Kenzie was grounded off of games today for throwing games yesterday, so that was the start of one annoyance. Every half hour or so, “Mommy, can I play a game”, then I’d say “No, you’re grounded” “Why? Did I throw the game?” “Yes, you did. So you don’t get to play today.” “Awwww!”. I hate that without even meaning to at all, I’ve got a kid who won’t stop talking about computer games.

And I swear Kaeidyn’s turning too, though that one is more of my fault. She gets jealous that Kenzie’s down playing games all day. So she’s got her own little browser on the computer, and more recently has learnt how to type in words written on pieces of paper. So GamesGames and TreehouseTV are normally typed into the omnibar of the Google Chrome Browser and away Kaeidyn goes. Gaming’s just gonna end up coming naturally for Keirnan and Carter.

Do you think that’s normal for this new generation to have more access to video games? Is it abnormal for a 3-year-old to be playing video games?

Well tomorrow is another day of school for Kaeidyn, probably another day of games for Kenzie, another day of squealing for Keirnan. For Carter it’ll be another day of doing what he’s doing now, and that’s crying. For me, it’ll be another day of cleaning, exhaustion and body aches. Whoever said this job was easy? At least The Big Bang Theory and House are on tomorrow night!!

For some reason, the upstairs of my house is insanely hot. We had the dryer going earlier, and then I cooked dinner(all on the stove-top) and then all of a sudden it was just cooking in here. The heat wasn’t up very high to start off with, and then we’ve turned it down more. I’m still sweating though.

So today was a bit of a treat day for me today. Not only did I get the new vacuum that I really wanted yesterday, but The Boyfriend picked me up an exercise ball and resistance band. I’ve been talking almost non-stop about wanting to lose this baby belly (that I’ve only gotten since having Carter), and wanting to get healthier.

I think I’ve already started on this goal. Unfortunately, I don’t think I can change to healthy eating habits yet, or at least not more than I’m already doing. But exercise has been easy. Firstly, I’ve been getting off my butt and doing alot more. The dishes get done almost everyday, and I consider it a workout when I’m juggling dishes, Keirnan who wants to dump water all over the counter, and Kaeidyn who gets mad that she doesn’t get to wash the dishes.

Then I’ve been lifting my little 5 lb. dumb bell everyday. About 10 bicep curls a day for sure. I have this idea about how I want my body to look, so now I’m looking into learning how to achieve that. Another thing that I’ve been looking into is belly dancing. I’d really like to get into it, and I think I’ve kind of already got the basics down. I want to spend some serious time learning it though…

As you may have noticed, all the pages that were here, are not visible right now. I’m in the process of editing everything! I want this blog to be simple, and easy to navigate, and I want it to be very accessible. So I’m working on making all that possible within the confines of the features available to me with WordPress for free.

My kids are going through some interesting things right now. Kaeidyn, the sweet, wonderful devil that she is, is having so many issues with her attitude. It seems like everyday we’re creating some sort of boundary with her to keep her attitude in check. She’s been talking back, being bossy, acting spoiled, and just generally being huffy, about everything.

Most nights, The Boyfriend fills up everyone’s drinks and they head down to bed. After awhile (the next time I have to go to the bathroom), I go and give them kisses and hugs and tuck them in. A couple nights back, I started reading them their new Dr. Seuss books, which we’re all loving. It’s fun for the kids because they like the rhyming and it’s fun for us parents, because it’s nice to be able to laugh at your mistakes as you attempt the flip-flopping tongue twisters.

When I tell Kaeidyn “I’ll be down in a minute to read to you”, she flips out, starts bawling her eyes out and then comes, in her most dramatic, whiny voice, “No you won’t, you never read me my book”. She’s learning phone numbers and constantly wants to call people. When I say no, she’ll sit there and cry and cry until I give in.

Kenzie is going through this gaming thing. He wakes up in the morning, and the first thing he asks is if he can play games. The answer is always no, he’s not allowed to start until 9 AM. Of course, I thought I was being all smart, and taught him how to tell when the clock says 9:00, and while he doesn’t completely understand, in the morning when the short hand is all the way at the top of the clock, he knows he’ll get to play.

Today, he got grounded from the games, which is about a weekly occurance. When he’s told to shut off the games, he gets hissy and a couple times he’s thrown things. Today it was the game he was playing. So, he got grounded off of games for the rest of the night and tomorrow. I’m not looking forward to tomorrow. He’ll whine all day, “Mommy, I want to play a game!”.

Keirnan right now, is in this phase of constantly wanting to help, be a part of things, cuddling. He sits so close to me on the couch, and if it wasn’t for the fact that Carter’s almost always sitting there, he’d be sitting in my lap. When I go to the kitchen, no matter what I do, he’s out there in a second trying to help. I’m always tripping over little chairs and stools that he drags around all over the kitchen to help with things. When you don’t let him help, he squeals! I cringe everytime he squeals.

Carter, the boy whose supposed to be my baby, is just growing up too fast every single day. He’s smiling, he’s pretty much crawling, he’s eaten apple sauce and had no ill effects, he just seems like he’s getting so old, so fast. I love it and I hate it all at the same time.

All the kids are coming down with colds again. I knew it was going to happen, what with Kaeidyn going back to school and the weather going back and forth between super cold and kind of warm. The cycle normally goes Kaeidyn, Keirnan, Kenzie, Me and The Boyfriend. Now we’ve got a different cycle that I haven’t figured out because Carter’s been added. So far Kaeidyn and Keirnan both have runny noses, Carter’s a little congested. So Kenzie will probably get a terrible cough, and then I’ll be slammed with all the ailments of all the kids colds, and then The Boyfriend will spend a day or two with a stuffy/runny nose. YAY, I love this season!

Mama T went back to work. It happened very quickly, and it was only really funny because the night before she left, Kaeidyn called her and then her and I started talking and she was saying how badly she wanted to go back to work. Next day, she gets a call and that night she left to go to camp. The only thing that sucked about her leaving is now we don’t have a ride anywhere. And before, she’d just leave us the car and The Boyfriend would drive it (he has a license, I don’t…). I’m not sure exactly what happened there, but all of a sudden, we just weren’t allowed to drive the car anymore. She’d be like “No, I’ll take you.” Now that she’s gone out of town though, and the car is just sitting over in the parking lot of her apartment building, it just kind of ticks me off that we’re wasting money taking cabs places and stuff, when she could’ve just lent us the car, saved us some money and not had her car sit idle in the cold until who knows when. Okay, enough about that…

Well I have a 2-month-old starting to fuss, and it’s getting close to my bedtime. What ages, phases and stages are your kids at?